Don't let them know....you let your chin fall

*le sigh* okay so I got dragged into one of those 'Labor Day Family Picnics' God help me. *looks up and rolls eyes*

I only got two hours of sleep last night. They were dragging me up the fucking WALL last night.

So I'm waiting on my mum at the moment. Old and slow. I loathe the day.

It sucks too because my friend and I were writing a fanfiction where Voldemort can turn into a cat, and he gets Harry unsuspectingly. And...yeah. I suppose getting gone down on by a house cat or lion is beastiality so yeah. It was HOT though and I had to stop because I thought we were going but yeah. Still waitiing.

Anyway, Happy Labor to all who celebrate it and if not Happy Sunday.

Later all.

( The interaction I had with Ghosts today....alll fucking true. And this isn't even all of it. )



Okay so yeah. I was exhausted after that and when I fell asleep EVERYTHING stopped. And like the fire in the back was going and someone kept touching me so i was like boys go turn the fire off, and they did and it ceased. XD woah.

Talk about a crazy day.

its all true though, so believe what you will. If not than I am insane~

Well, I guess its a brand new day. Go to school, act like nothing happened. Get through my back to back class and come home to enjoy my three day weekend. Well talk to you guys later, I need to get ready, well finish anyway. I'm dressed, but I have to gather my books.

I do wish I could go back too sleep though. ._.

Okay, so i don't feel like shooting myself, at least for now. I took a nap. Cooled down, did a third of my homework and ate. Now I have 40 pages of IT and a good 100 of HIST.

So I guess that's all.

I need slash.

I'm suppose to be doing English and IT homework right now, but I'm too upset to concentrate.

I'm on a war path right now. I'm so close to crying. I woke up feeling horrible. Now I'm on a mission of self bloody destruction today.

I was sitting with the rest of the out casts in a free period ; shane, and shontese; sean and myself.

Well shance and I are self mutilators. I stopped a while a go, but I cannot deny I like inflicting of recieving pain. Well, shane was messing around, talkikng about some of his scars and someone said; "Just don't bleed on me.," Well out techer, Docter Carter heard and she was like, "No bleeding in my room." Well later at the end of the class he bit himself and sucked. The blood that was going to run to the bite to flush out infection was sucked out since he didn't break the skin.

Well he landed in the office. The city police and an ambulence showed up.

I had to write a fucking REPORT on my best fucking friend. It was betrayal clean and simple. I'm ready to cry. I don't want to be here. I need to leave school I need to be with him. I need to hug him and apologize until I can't talk anymore.

I'm literally shaking. I can't hold the pen I'm writing with now.

I had to write a comment/statement that could get my best fucking friend locked in a hospital.

Jessica and I are all he really has. I can't fucking deal with this right now.

He was dragged out of the school by the police and taken to the psyche ward. They found cuts and scars while examining the bite.

And to top off the fucking cake...

My grandma's in the hospital with a blood clot on his lung.

I want to fucking shoot myself.

Well, contrary to my last post, I feel sort of elated.

When I said close friends, not only did I mean close to me, but around where I am. I have two reallly good friends and an awesome Fritz. *grins* Jessie and Fritz managed to put me on a cloud that isn't going to disappate till way later today. I'm happy I only have ONE class today. If I had to do Back to Back classes like yesterday, I'd die from brain over load.

I slept six hours, and anyone, every, catchs me up that late again. Shoot me in your place of choosing and force me to go to bed.

My brain is literally screaming at me.

I guess I just need to wait till my coffee and mountain dew code red kick in.

Well off for the day. talk to you all later.

I think this is post three....

Man, I just realized something, and please do not try to argue it.

I have no close friends, or friends at all. I'm an out cast. I don't mind so much because I LOVE burying myself in work, especially education, but...its awkward when I go up to people I know and say Hi. All conversation ceases and they don't start up again till I leave.

And even the people I WAS friends with or had a bond to are drifting away. I lose faster then people drop pennies.

I want to learn Japanese, Latin, and Spanish; if I have anymore time, brain power or money left. I'd like to learn the rest of the romantics. French, Italian, et cetra.

Woah my life is depressing. Lol.

I'm suppose to be in advanced Biology, but my school sucks hard so I'm stuck in beginner's sophmore biology. How fun? *sarcasm people*

I dyed the ends of my hair Gryffindor red. In tribute to my last boyfriend. Cocky, outgoing, arragont, stupid, and fool hardy. The worst case senario of a gryffindor. Next will be blue, for my first love - a raven claw.

And...if it comes to it, then it'll be silver or green. I don't know anyone in hufflepuff but I had a slytherin that was in love with me. She said so, and...she was to scared to confirm anything, so after that we started drifting apart.

Look it me sittin' here reminicing. I'm ready to cry. I have people but, whatever....Yeah Fritz I know I'll get a comment from you, that's about all. You rock. Awesomely wicked. Lol.

But yeah. I have History tomorrow, don't have my books for Uni.

OMG I CANNOT BLOODY BELIEVE my english teacher. He changed the books so i have to return the ones I bought and get new ones. Damn him.

I've lost my sanity.

Now of course the Dark Lord was not so desperate as to copy someone else's Christmas idea, but he still couldn't get over the gift Harry Potter had given him the year before. A hug shirt, really? Though he did have fun groping the boy as payback.

Why just grope his upper half though?

The Dark Lord grinned like the evil man he was and brought out the gift he had gotten Harry. A pair of groping pants. Same idea and mechanics of a hug shirt except only the sender could take them off. Oh...he couldn't wait.

HARRYVOLDEMORT - YAY!! Woah, I really need sleep.

"Harry!!!!" Hermione yelled as she looked over at Ron, the two had let their friend sleep considering he had stayed out late the night before.

"What?! It's too bloody early for you to be yelling!" Hermione rolled her eyes as she went to shout again.

"PRESENTS!!" They both heard something fall before Harry came swinging down the dormitory steps.

"Woot! How many do I have?"

"Well, five?"

"That's one more than usual..."

"Well open that one first," Ron suggested. Harry shrugged and did just that. Once he opened the box he pulled out a pair of pants...well er - black leather pants.

"...who would send me these?" He asked, confused. Hermione shurgged but couldn't resist seeing a man in leather so she forced him to try them on.

So when Harry stood in front of his friends and checked himself out it was rather embarressing when he moaned loudly and his knees buckled at the same time his cell phone rang.

TBC ...eventually

Okay, so back at class. I'm in an IT class right now, Internet Technology.

All the books I bought for my ENG class are ones I don't need because the teacher changed all the books at the last moment. So yeah.....gotta go back to the book store. Return books, buy new ones.

And I had back to back classes today so I'm really tired. I wanna go home, put music on and curl up.

IT today is okay. Kinda boring, but shhh don't tell. *smiles*

I really really wish some of my teachers would make up their minds.

Anyway. TTYL peoples

Okay...so second day of Uni and I'm already considering dropping out. (Kidding)

I have three mountain Dews on monday, so I had a problem getting to sleep last night. Only had two - three hours most. I'm exhausted. I have loads of homework too. Ah well. I guess I'll just say I didn't have my books - Shh don't tell.

I just finished English, and I'm ready to hit the sheets. Now I just need to jot down Science notes and I'm good. For today at least XD

Laters

Wotcher, all! How many of you are Death Eaters?

Anyway....Very boring day..I didn't say that in my first post. Well, anyway....SLASH!! WOOT

Title: Runaway Love
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Slash, blood play...all that fascinating stuff.
Summary: At seventeen, Harry takes off and hides in plain site of the wizarding world. Befriending the night as he plays his own side.

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Okay, so its not the most thought over fanfiction I've ever written. Mostly just abstract ideas I like to write dow and call a story. Its really not.

Okay so I guess this is the new 'Ragin' journal. Or something like that. Not much to say today. Started Uni, wrote slash in my free time. So on...so forth. Lol, I got this wonderful idea for a Harry Potter and Lord Voldemort fic.

One is an add on to Anna Tramell where Harry gets 'groping pants' and another is where Harry, even though he realizes the Dursleys will never love him, blows his lid because they treat him like shite. Runs away...finds Voldemort...slash insues. I suppose it'll be more interesting then that though. Well, Ja peoples.